Horrendous Graffiti All Over the Brain Panel

I don’t like being on Unemployment. 

I don’t like the regulations I have to be on, making sure I do everything right because otherwise I might get penalized, might not be able to claim in the future, might have to pay them back. I don’t like it. 

When I had to apply to the job searches I found when I was at Work Source, I literally picked the first ones I came across, to which they told me I had 24 (or was it 48?) hours to apply to them. One was a casino, and the last casino I applied to pretty promptly rejected my application.

This one was the opposite. They called me the same day and want me to come in for an interview. I missed the call. They left a message. I’ve been afraid to call them back purely because I don’t want the job based on location. It’s all the way up near the Canadian boarder, maybe 30 miles from here. That’s 30 miles in our gas-guzzling truck that I can’t afford to do, even for an interview. 

I have to call them back and schedule the interview. I have to, by unemployment standards. If I don’t then I have broken that agreement saying I won’t turn down an interview and so on. I’m just scared to. 

I hate being on unemployment. I almost just want to tell them I’m fine, I’ve found a job, and just apply and do my searches my own way, in my own time, under my own circumstances.

You know, bill collectors love not being paid though.

I hate being on unemployment!

I got an email from Work Source yesterday, telling me I had to change my resume because it was too personal, which I mentioned in a post earlier. I hate that. Why can’t I be a person when I’m selling myself for a job? I am not a drone, I am an individual! A delightful individual that will just knock your socks off with my work ethic…as long as you’re willing to play ball with my going-to-school agenda. 

That’s the other thing. Somehow it all ties in with my going to school.

Honestly, being jobless isn’t what’s giving me anxiety. It’s just that balancing act between financial aid and unemployment. I’m not trying to scam anyone, I’m not trying to be a bad panda in any way, I’m just trying to play within the rules, do what my advisor has advised, and get some education. Is that so much to ask???

Sorry, this has turned into a rant. My apologies. It’s just all over my mind like really horrendous graffiti. 



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